I feel like I complained a whole lot last week- okay two weeks ago. Yes it was all true. Yes I am feeling overwhelmed often. Yes I’m not sleeping enough and I am grouchy sometimes- but really there is so much that is going well. And I am really wanting to focus on that.
I was running the other morning (a rare occurrence right now) and it just really hit me how blessed I am. After college we lived in Seattle and it was such a hard time of life. It wasn’t all bad- we had Easton and some dear friends. But for the most part it was a pretty dark time for me. Not living near family and being newly married we, I, struggled a lot. I really didn’t see things getting any better for a long time. And now- to think how much things have changed in only two and half years- the same amount of time that we lived in Seattle. We live near family. My business is growing. My boys are such joys to me. Soren and my relationship has improved. What a list of miracles and answered prayers.
So yes, this time of life involves a lot of hard things like sleep deprivation, crying kids, mommy-guilt, stress, and a LONG to-do list. But I love who I take care of, the items on my to-do list, and the feeling of growth and progression that hard stuff brings. I really am trying to do better each day at being present in the moment and focusing on what is great and wonderful and taking the rest of it in stride.