Can you tell I was totally bugged at my photographer as he was taking these photos? I can. (And yes that photographer is my husband.) I’m going to diverge from my normal ‘real’ talk topic of motherhood today because honestly marriage is what’s been giving me grief this week. It is just tough to be married sometimes.
We are coming up on our eighth wedding anniversary and I can definitely say this last year has been our best ever. I haven’t talked about it here much, and maybe I will in the future, but the first 6+ years of our marriage were pretty dang awful. We had some good times and made some awesome kids during those years, but they were also full of a lot of fighting and tears and marriage counseling. We have come SO far from those times in the last year and a half, but it’s not perfect. Sometimes, like this past weekend, I start thinking about my mental list of “Why hasn’t he…blah, blah, blah…yet?!?” and “When is he ever going to…blah, blah, blah?!?” And I get all worked up about all of the things about him that drive me crazy and just plain make me mad. I get impatient with what I want from him and our life together and I start nagging. I hate it, and I hate myself while I’m doing it. I know it’s only making things worse. I know it is only making improvement from him and for myself harder. But I still do it. It is hard to push the reset button and move on after a weekend like that. The only thing that I know helps is to shift my focus to the things that I’m grateful for and to really look at how far we have come. We still have a ways to go and I know I’m pretty far from perfect myself.
Have you ever found yourself in a nagging habit? How do you try to get out of it?
// Outfit Details //
Shirt – GAP
Pants – Target
Shoes – Thrifted (Target)
Cuff – ONE little MOMMA
And thanks to everyone who entered last week’s Boden giveaway! Cortney Fish is our winner!